w-h-y

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

What sh0uld I do

w-h-a-t shall I do?
.w.h.a.t. should I do?

feelin' siCk
feelin' fan
feelin' down


Welcoming 2009 RAYA
'U' will nvr be forgotten

.B.A.L.A.N.C.E.

What do .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. means?
Why must there be .b.a.l.a.n.c.e.?
When can .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. be achieved?
How can .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. be achieved?
Where can .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. be found?

Do .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. really exists?
Is there really .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. in everythin' we do?

I want & need...
@ .B.A.L.A.N.C.E !
badly.....

Happy B'day

Dad with the cake specially baked by my sis!
Dad sang a number of songs; Yesterday Once More, Paper Roses, How Can I Tell Her, just to name a few

Dad blowin' the candle...


...Family pic..
..Cheerz every1..
** Dad with a 'cheeky' smile


Special prformance from -little Crystal-


Sis with Crystal
The 1 who 'provided' Dad's b'day cake
=)


Crystal with her parents
Say 'cheese'


'Ah ma' with her 'soon'[s]
..smile.. ; )


& lastly ME, Brandon & DAD


Special 10z 2 d specially baked n designed cake by my sis, Andrea


Finally, time 2 cut d cake & fill into our tummy
A night filled with singing, eating, drinking & fun
2 bad I did not ate the cake..
sorry Dad coz I got 2 leave early as well..

Happy Birthday 2 U, Happy Birthday 2 U
Happy Birthday to Daddy..
Happy Birthday 2 U
come 15.09.09

!Happy B'day in advance!

One.1~satu

Date: 02.09.09

Venue: K***

Significance: Today, officially I have been here for a full .1. year !!!

Comments: Uncountables unexplainable experiences except for .1.&0nly.

~The END~

02.09.09

I am feeling lost

Not in a deep blue sea

but in this concrete world

I am feeling m0ody

For no real reasons

Just like the unpredictable weather of late

I am feeling d0wn

like the ten-pins being crushed by the rolling bowling ball

I am feeling uncertain

like a blind man walking without a 'tongkat'

I am feeling so blur

As though I am facing a group of Japanese speaking peers

I am feeling so 'R0jaK'

like a chinese guy marrying a malay lady, adopting an indian child!

Happy 52nd Merdeka Day!!!

wiSh

I am making a w1sH 2day

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N my wiSh did not come true....

31.08.09

You know what's today's date???

31.08.09

Yea... It's 31.08.09!!!

It's a public holiday!

so what?

In this profession of mine

there's no such thing as public holiday!

I was wondering...

Is it just like what ppl said...

"We must start out in this field 1st. Just tahan for a couple of years plus. After that you'll senang!"

or ppl said that

"this is the toughest field!"

Is that really true???

When u can't take the pressure anymore,

You yourself will asked,

"Why am 1 doing this? Why should we work so hard when the pay we got is worst than what a beggar earned a day by begging on the street compared to the amount of workload we r burden with!"

Is this really worth it???

Then, when you, out of nowhere got some spirit to faced all of the challenges...

Again, 'DEMOTIVATION' will pay you a visit!

Work Life Balance?

Wtf! It's more like -No Life, All Work- scenario !

!!!Wake Up!!!

so,

If you really wanna take up this profession,

you gotta give something away for a couple of years plus...

you gotta lived with it & packed yourself with +ve thoughts all those years

you just gotta ignore whatever -ve that comes your way!

& if you felt you can't take it anymore,

ppl will say

"Find another job 1st, market is bad now"

In the end, Life Goes On~

?What can you do?