28.12.09

Why am I still persevering?
Why am I still complaining?
Why am I still .....................................................................

ShitsSss

F***..
Shits....
S**...

Jz pissed 0ff...

03.12.09

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to mummy,
Happy birthday to you

Happy 53rd B'day, MUM
Love & MiSs ya always.....

My LIFE

Setting: At a beautiful little French Village.
Begins a wonderful story for.....

a little guy name ahVin

and a little gal name ahNy0k
when we 1st arrived in this little village

ahNyok was 'WOWww'
but WHY??

a 'france' like weather

a source for our f0od

free-flow of water f0r our usage..

with D nice weather, food, & water available..
it was a perfect place 4 us
so we decided......

2 build our life here
& name our little home...

TaTaM1


we settled d0wn

& live a 'japanese' like life
=.<

although jz a so-so liFe

.............but we live happily eVer~after..........

E.m.o

E- endless rush of feelings

M- miSs-timed, misS-leading, misS-behaved

o- 0bnoxious, ann0yin' & hateful

I hate being EMO but I was bornt with IT...
E.nough! M.ove on! O.vercome!

FEAR

I FEAR
n0t knowing what's next
not knowing what's to come
not kowing what's to expect

I FEAR
as my hiSt0ry came back to haunt me
giving me sleepless nights
making me afraid & frighten

I FEAR
of death
of not knowing when, what & why
of losing some1 dear to me

I FEAR
I am F righten, E motional, A fraid & R estless....

-Fruits-

We all think eating fruits means just buying fruits, cutting it and just popping it into our mouths. It's not as easy as you think. It's important to know how and when to eat.

What is the correct way of eating fruits?

IT MEANS NOT EATING FRUITS AFTER YOUR MEALS! * FRUITS SHOULD BE EATEN ON AN EMPTY STOMACH.

If you eat fruit like that, it will play a major role to detoxify your system, supplying you with a great deal of energy for weight loss and other life activities.

FRUIT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT FOOD.
Let's say you eat two slices of bread and then a slice of fruit. The slice of fruit is ready to go straight through the stomach into the intestines, but it is prevented from doing so.

In the meantime the whole meal rots and ferments and turns to acid. The minute the fruit comes into contact with the food in the stomach and digestive juices, the entire mass of food begins to spoil....

So please eat your fruits on an empty stomach or before your meals! You have heard people complaining every time I eat watermelon I burp, when I eat durian my stomach bloats up, when I eat a banana I feel like running to the toilet, etc actually all this will not arise if you eat the fruit on an empty stomach. The fruit mixes with the putrefying other food and produces gas and hence you will bloat!

Graying hair, balding, nervous outburst, and dark circles under the eyes all these will NOT happen if you take fruits on an empty stomach.

There is no such thing as some fruits, like orange and lemon are acidic, because all fruits become alkaline in our body, according to Dr. Herbert Shelton who did research on this matter. If you have mastered the correct way of eating fruits, you have the Secret of beauty, longevity, health, energy, happiness and normal weight.

When you need to drink fruit juice - drink only fresh fruit juice, NOT from the cans. Don't even drink juice that has been heated up. Don't eat cooked fruits because you don't get the nutrients at all. You only get to taste. Cooking destroys all the vitamins.

But eating a whole fruit is better than drinking the juice. If you should drink the juice, drink it mouthful by mouthful slowly, because you must let it mix with your saliva before swallowing it. You can go on a 3-day fruit fast to cleanse your body. Just eat fruits and drink fruit juice throughout the 3 days and you will be surprised when your friends tell you how radiant you look!

KIWI:
Tiny but mighty. This is a good source of potassium, magnesium, vitamin E & fiber. Its vitamin C content is twice that of an orange.

APPLE:
An apple a day keeps the doctor away? Although an apple has a low vitamin C content, it has antioxidants & flavonoids which enhances the activity of vitamin C thereby helping to lower the risks of colon cancer, heart attack & stroke.

STRAWBERRY:
Protective Fruit. Strawberries have the highest total antioxidant power among major fruits & protect the body from cancer-causing, blood vessel-clogging free radicals.

ORANGE :
Sweetest medicine. Taking 2-4 oranges a day may help keep colds away, lower cholesterol, prevent & dissolve kidney stones as well as lessens the risk of colon cancer.

WATERMELON:
Coolest thirst quencher. Composed of 92% water, it is also packed with a giant dose of glutathione, which helps boost our immune system. They are also a key source of lycopene — the cancer fighting oxidant. Other nutrients found in watermelon are vitamin C & Potassium.

GUAVA & PAPAYA:
Top awards for vitamin C. They are the clear winners for their high vitamin C content.. Guava is also rich in fiber, which helps prevent constipation. Papaya is rich in carotene; this is good for your eyes.

Wheel 0f Life

How high is the mountain,
How deep is the sea,
How long will man learn to live.
How blue is the ocean,
How green is the leaf,
How long will man learn to be free.

For you shall not go
Round and round again,
In this wheel of life;
And you shall not go
Down and down again,
With your fruitless strive.

How long is the night,
To the sleepless one,
Waiting for the morn to come,
How long is the road,
To the weary one,
Carrying on the route that he can't.

Strength

puSh
pull
kiCk
Hit
WhaCk
watever..

Strength
What's strength?

16.10.09

as I continued my Marath0N

I braved myself through "rain & shine"

I put myself through a sea of unthinkable feelings

& yet i still need 2 continue my jourNey

be it a push

be it a pull

i jUst need to get 2 d finiSh line

N0 matter what & how......

Mara[+]h0n

6 Days marath0N
still can't c D finish liNe...
g0nna touch 7 Days...

BeeN running n0n st0p...
eveN 0n public holiday

Saw H0r.wa+h in fr0nt 0f me
Saw LV in fr0nt of me
Sh0uld I make a st0p?
or continue running my Marath0n ???

I d0n't wanna MiSs a ThinG

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

mo0ncake festiVal

H.a.p.p.y ~m.o0ncaKe~ FeStival
to every1 out there
eat m0on.cake until got tummy ya...

w-h-y

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

What sh0uld I do

w-h-a-t shall I do?
.w.h.a.t. should I do?

feelin' siCk
feelin' fan
feelin' down


Welcoming 2009 RAYA
'U' will nvr be forgotten

.B.A.L.A.N.C.E.

What do .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. means?
Why must there be .b.a.l.a.n.c.e.?
When can .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. be achieved?
How can .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. be achieved?
Where can .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. be found?

Do .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. really exists?
Is there really .b.a.l.a.n.c.e. in everythin' we do?

I want & need...
@ .B.A.L.A.N.C.E !
badly.....

Happy B'day

Dad with the cake specially baked by my sis!
Dad sang a number of songs; Yesterday Once More, Paper Roses, How Can I Tell Her, just to name a few

Dad blowin' the candle...


...Family pic..
..Cheerz every1..
** Dad with a 'cheeky' smile


Special prformance from -little Crystal-


Sis with Crystal
The 1 who 'provided' Dad's b'day cake
=)


Crystal with her parents
Say 'cheese'


'Ah ma' with her 'soon'[s]
..smile.. ; )


& lastly ME, Brandon & DAD


Special 10z 2 d specially baked n designed cake by my sis, Andrea


Finally, time 2 cut d cake & fill into our tummy
A night filled with singing, eating, drinking & fun
2 bad I did not ate the cake..
sorry Dad coz I got 2 leave early as well..

Happy Birthday 2 U, Happy Birthday 2 U
Happy Birthday to Daddy..
Happy Birthday 2 U
come 15.09.09

!Happy B'day in advance!

One.1~satu

Date: 02.09.09

Venue: K***

Significance: Today, officially I have been here for a full .1. year !!!

Comments: Uncountables unexplainable experiences except for .1.&0nly.

~The END~

02.09.09

I am feeling lost

Not in a deep blue sea

but in this concrete world

I am feeling m0ody

For no real reasons

Just like the unpredictable weather of late

I am feeling d0wn

like the ten-pins being crushed by the rolling bowling ball

I am feeling uncertain

like a blind man walking without a 'tongkat'

I am feeling so blur

As though I am facing a group of Japanese speaking peers

I am feeling so 'R0jaK'

like a chinese guy marrying a malay lady, adopting an indian child!

Happy 52nd Merdeka Day!!!

wiSh

I am making a w1sH 2day

.

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.

N my wiSh did not come true....

31.08.09

You know what's today's date???

31.08.09

Yea... It's 31.08.09!!!

It's a public holiday!

so what?

In this profession of mine

there's no such thing as public holiday!

I was wondering...

Is it just like what ppl said...

"We must start out in this field 1st. Just tahan for a couple of years plus. After that you'll senang!"

or ppl said that

"this is the toughest field!"

Is that really true???

When u can't take the pressure anymore,

You yourself will asked,

"Why am 1 doing this? Why should we work so hard when the pay we got is worst than what a beggar earned a day by begging on the street compared to the amount of workload we r burden with!"

Is this really worth it???

Then, when you, out of nowhere got some spirit to faced all of the challenges...

Again, 'DEMOTIVATION' will pay you a visit!

Work Life Balance?

Wtf! It's more like -No Life, All Work- scenario !

!!!Wake Up!!!

so,

If you really wanna take up this profession,

you gotta give something away for a couple of years plus...

you gotta lived with it & packed yourself with +ve thoughts all those years

you just gotta ignore whatever -ve that comes your way!

& if you felt you can't take it anymore,

ppl will say

"Find another job 1st, market is bad now"

In the end, Life Goes On~

?What can you do?

Movies Galore

Alot of movies 2 watch!!!

If u like action-oriented movie --> Laughing Gor
Gangster-Undercover-Police

This movie tells the story of Laughing with a dark background as a triad member under Chou (Anthony Wong). Chou was the triad's leader and persuaded Laughing to join the police force as an undercover for the triad to spy on police activities. While in the police academy, Laughing excelled but not well enough to be confirmed as a police officer. Instead he was recruited to be an undercover agent to spy on some illegal activities. Laughing now maintains the life as a double undercover agent, with crucial information from both sides. However, an incident disturbs the balance of the two identities and threatens to blow his cover. With both the triad and police force suspicious of his loyalty, Laughing does not know who he can trust to save him

(if u r tvb-lovers - amusing plot, thumbs up 2 anthony wong & francis ng! damn go0d at acting as bad guy!)

If u like fun-going & humour oriented

A 78-year-old man named Carl Fredricksen spent his entire life dreaming of exploring the globe and experiencing life to its fullest. Due to his age, he thinks life has passed him by. One day, an 8-year old wilderness explorer named Russell, changes his outlook on life and the pair goes on adventures, encountering wild terrains, unexpected villains and jungle creatures.

[if u love how younger generations blend with older ones]

Family-oriented with funny man, Eddie!

Eddie Murphy stars as a successful financial executive, Evan who has more time for his BlackBerry than his seven-year-old daughter, Olivia (Yara Shahidi). When he has a confidence crisis and his career starts going down the drain, he soon finds the solution to all his problems in his daughter's imaginary world.

-> if u like family-like movie; relationship between father & daughter<--

24.08.09 - 28.08.09

Early mornings

Late nights

but most importantly is my tummy

Ilustration showed my meal 4 d whole week

Nice & special

thanks!

GraDuat!on

4 years
& finally HE graduated!
& finally HE got to leave 'The Little Jungle of Sintok'
& finally HE got the magical 'Scroll'
& finally HE will say G00dbye to HIS FriendS
BUt sadness filled His Heart
As THE ONE HE WANTED most to be there
will not be the PHYSICALLY....


2day
HE made HiS way to another 'Leaving Party'
Leaving Party called CONVOCATION
for SHE has Graduated thiS time Around
As HE arrived at the Destination
HE whispered:
" MUM, 2day's Andrea's Convocation! I know MUM will be with US even though MUM's not around anymore. MUM deserves to be HERE more than any1 else! "

Sadness filled His HEART once again
for MUM did not make it to His
as well as to Hers
HE felt the 'true pain of FATE'
for the very 1st time in HiS short life so far...

......THE ONE missed Deeply & Truthfully.....

MUM
We always th!Nk, MisS & L0ve you

If you were A Memory...

If you were a memory,

I would be downhearted

If you were a memory

I would be depressed

If you were a memory,

I would be devastated

If you were a memory

I would want to be part of that memory

A memorable memory

A sweet and meaningful memory

An unforgettable memory

Whereby

Looking back at sadness would make me laugh

but looking back at laughter would make me cry

If you were a memory,

Which I don’t want you to be one

& If I ever had an option

I would want you to be my FUTURE...

SiCk-enin'

It's a SICK-eNING world out there now!
Fighting for power everyWhere!
Disaster here & there!
1 Conflict after another!
1 Disease after another!
There's More Out There...
One after Another....

What's Happening to Our WORLD 2day ???

SiCk

Your gentle touches,
Your delicate care,
Your undying love,
I missed all of them
Especially more when I am sick!

Y0U were by me,
No matter day or late at night,
Y0U were always there,
Y0U were always ready,
Even though you were tired,
Y0U still have time
to heal the little sickness in Me

Now I am sick,
I missed all those times,
When YOU were around,
Your never ending care, love & touches
that soothed my ailing body.....

YOU r the best, MUM
ONE I appreciate forever....

tiME

Time,
Alwiz ticking away
every seconds, minutes and hours of everyday
only ticking forward & not backward
Once the time past, you can never turn back the time again!

Time,
When you wanted it to move faster
The slower it moved though
When you wanted the time to slowdown
zo0m........
It is even faster that the speed of light! ('kua zhang' abit)

Time,
One Day the TIME will come
When we Cant Do Anything
to Prevent or Stop THAT time fr0m coming
Worst still
this TIME might just take you by suprise
That's when we realized our TIME's up!

; )

Why

Why o why
Why must you come to me?
Why must you choose me?
Why must you infect me?

Why must I feel weak because of you?
Why must I feel sick because of you?
Why must I suffer because of you?

Can you pls leave me as soon as possible?
Can you pls go now!
Can you just leave me al0ne!
Can you not disturb me anymore?


I beg u.........






Damn o Damn VIRUS
= )

Sumatera Utara 2

Language Barrier

Bahasa Indon or watever language it is called is quite hard 2 undst when spoken by the locals there but when listening to the radio, the language is still understandable. Basically they sounded so 'malay' with a slang.

wang - uang
universiti - universitas
Ogos - Augustus
Julai - Juli
Akaun - Akuntasi

Accomodation

The place where I sleep & eat during my stay there. Every1 stay under 1 shelter. Even the GM & Financial Controller. They are both M'sians working in Indon and there are 2 more Chinese Malaysians from Muar there. They all made my stay in Indon easier.

Transportation

My main mode of transport in Indon! Of course i dont have to drive myself lo.. Got driver ma! But in the area I went, hard to c those normal 'Sedan' cars...Mostly i saw this 4 wheels & most if not all are Toyotas!!! The their toyota sure got this "KIJANG" word de...no matter wat model

Experiences

One think that caught my attention there is that most of their road do not have lines in the middle so at times mmg susah to differentiate between 1 way n 2 way. Then right, in the middle of the road pula ada tong tong then ada orang duduk in the middle of the road holding a net pula.. I fikir & fikir also cant think of the logic of sitting in the middle of the road with net. So I ask the financial controller, & he told that they are 'fishing' for donations for masjid!! Can you digest that? Haha...

Then, I don't think you would 1 to drive in Indon. They used their car's hone all the time, to signal to the drivers in front to 'GET OUT OF MY WAY' & 'I AM OVERTAKING U!' Driving in Sumatera was really stressful. Even me as mere passenger felt the tension-ness!

The 'trishaws' we used to know here are different there. Instead of using bicycle to get it moving, they used motorbikes pula! hehe. They dont have to wear any helmet or any protections too! A ride through the dusty streets in the evening will bring you to the scene of mothers carrying their child siiting outside their 'badly conditioned' house by the road staring blankly & chatting away. They seemed contented despite their simple & limited life!

Sumatera Utara

Just back from 2days 1 night working trip to a factory in Lintas T.Tinggi - P. Siantar Km. 21.5 Kalembak - Dolok Merawan Serdang Bedagai, Sumatera Utara Indonesia!!!

Departure & Arrival
8:30am - Driver came & pick me up.
10.15am - Exited Seremban toll. Arrived safely at LCCT, KLIA soon after. Airport full of buzz, pack with so many people. Check in, go through normal procedures and waited at waiting area.
10:45-11:45 am - Reached too early? What can I do? Saw ppl using their laptops at d waiting area so I also follow suit. Luckily, there's wireless was available. Surf and chat all d way.....
12:00 noon - Announced the arrival of QZ8055. Queued up and wait for my password to be checked and jalan to the waiting Airbus.

Polonia International Airport, Medan
Arrived about 12:05noon. Yes 12:05noon Indon time. Indon time is 1 hour earlier than our local time.. At the Polonia, all arrivals need to go through 'Health Spray' (Disinfect). There were ppl taking advantage of 1st time tourist there who dunno where to go and wat to do next. This particular guy came and offer his help and being 1st time there, I blindly and stupidly obeyed! He was helpful and I went throught the procedures easily, dont have to wait n queue up but it came with a price! The guy later ask for wang cop passport! I gave. Then, he asked for wang kopi! I was reluctant at 1st and replied "Wang tadi tak cukup? I takde ruppiah lagi belum tukar lagi". But that guy, like any 'money-sucker' around kept pestering me...and me being annoyed, shut his 'smelly mouth' with another piece of Ruppiah!

Went through the gate and saw the 'one' arranged to pick me up. He was holding a piece of card in rectangular shape showing "KEVIN - K***". So i walked straight to him & adknowledged that I was the guy he was waiting for! He told he was waiting for 3 other Auditors from Bandung. So I sat there and he went to the Domestic Arrivals platform and doing the same thing again. Holding another piece of rectangular card with different msg this time around. I waited there for nearly 2hours. Just sitting there observing people and culture in Medan. The taxi there mostly used 'Excel' branded car and colored in blue and red with their company's logo firmly 'chop' at the doors. Let me ask you a Question here. What is the thing that most ppl around the world love the most??? Any idea? personally, I think the answer is CIGARETTE ! Nearly every1, young or old was smoking and the 'asap-asap yg teramat wangi sekali' was filling the air there; make until me so kenot de tahan with the 'aroma'! (4give me for my language here, wahaha!) So nearly 2 hours of 'aromatherapy' there that had shorten my life to 'who noes how many years!' =(
It really amazed me that, both young & old shared d "passion & beauty" of these *tiny paper wrapping tobacco 'time-bomb'* Wahaha!

Thank God after 2hours of sufferings, the 3 Auditors from Bandung finally arrived! Smartly dressed in formal with jacket attached! Look young but after knowing them better, they are not as young as I thought in the 1st place. More of them later on. =) After 2 hours of waiting, next I have to endure another 2-3hours of "ass-pain" to get to the Factory in the address stated above sekali. The journey through the town & road of Indon posed another 'new chapter of xperiences' in my life!!!